One day she again came to me and said that,"I do not say anything to you,why are you disturbing me?".I replied,"You have the right to say any thing to me".She went away with anger.I was now growing up,I was no longer a kid.I was now a teenager.I also strike my puberty at that time.My face was spoiled due to the changing hormones.My face got covered with acne and pimples.As my face was revealed,everyone started making jokes at me.The only thing that hurt was that she was included among those people.She laughed,laughed and laughed.I had nothing to do except staring at her.Every time I stared at her,my eyes asked the same question,"WHY???". Although I did tried to talk to her many times.I wanted to talk to her alone.I was uncomfortable with her friends.I had a thought that once I sit with her and communicate for some time alone,I could come back.My all thefears could vanish,She never agreed.She once talked with me on face book,I got so excited that I barked what ever came to my mouth.She said that she could give me a chance if I stop my stupideness.Of course my answer was yes but I did a mistake.I never told her my yes.I asked her,"What Stupidiness??".Actually I asked her to explain,give me steps,guide me,help me,but she wrongly understood and blocked me forever.
I was becoming totally mad,so many mistakes.How could I do that?.I was becoming restless.I had no friends.Technically,I was locked up in my room 24/7.I had nothing to do except thinking about her.So I decided to have some friends for my own good.I went to the nearest playground from my home and made some new friends. I usually played basket ball with them.My life was finally becoming normal.I could finally laugh with them but as I got closer to them,I knew they were in to drugs.I was in the wrong company but I had no choice.I needed a support and they were acting as a backbone.My loneliness was only filled with their company. Hani was becoming rude and ignorant day by day.I usually remained quiet because I knew that if I do something her respect would be in danger.Let her do whatever she wants to do.My respect was already down in my school,I don't want to destroy hers also by erecting an issue.One day she had gone so mad that she tried to tease me with different ways.She would usually throw my bag in to the dustbin or disrespect me in front of the whole class.That day I got so upset that I decided to do drugs.
As I got in to the drugs,my life destroyed.Although I did found relaxation in them which Hani couldn't provide me.I knew I was going in the wrong direction.I once told her about me taking drugs.She just replied with a nasty answer.She said that do whatever you want to do,I don't care.Actually I wanted her to stop me.My intensity of taking drugs increased with her nasty answer.
I was becoming a physic over time.My parents observed my weird behaviour and took me to a physcologist.Doctor diagnosed the intensity of depression and recommended me some tablets.Due to the increased tension I also tried to commit suicide once.
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